The crushed dreams of Kris Fleetwood

Yes, this is a self-pity blog entry, so if you don't like it, piss off while I wallow in it.

I've come to the realization that I must really suck. First, I work my ass off and kill myself for a company that could give two shits less if I stay or go, and, to add insult to injury, corporate politics came into play to shut me out of a buyer position that would have furthered my career. Now, I'm not saying I had a flawless interview, but to keep me on for so long and continuing to claim that I'm "still under strong consideratin for the position," and then drop me like a bag of stinky poo deserves some explanation. Anyway, this position would have allowed me to gain more knowledge of the video industry and it's inner workings, thus allowing me to network and gain more contacts in order to further my career, not to mention the work experience I would have gained. Is "The Man" just trying to keep me down so I can't be used against him in the future?
Sidenote: Look into possibly writing a book or screenplay entitled, The Conspiracy Against Kris Fleetwood.

But, that's not all that makes me suck. As you may have read, Xploited Cinema recently decided to call it quits. Well, I consider the owner a friend (even though the feeling may not be mutual), not one I hang out with, but one I've looked to for product knowledge, and hold in high esteem for mastering his business, which I love, and could be their #1 supporter!! Anyway, since my interests lie more in video and obscure cinema, than any other entertainment media, I thought I'd put in an inquiry on buying his business, since I hate to see it's demise, and know I could run it well. Not that I have the capital to buy it right now, or have even seriously looked into getting a loan, but it's something that fits my personality, would allow me to be my own boss, and bring great product to others worldwide. But, to make a long and disappointing story short, that's not something he's interested in doing, and he shut down my idea of visiting him in order to take some pointers and determine if that's something I'd want to get into. Remember, he's the Jedi Master of bringing world cinema to us commoners, so I thought I'd learn from the best. But, once again, it's not about what I want, so it's You suck Mr. Fleetwood.

WOW, that's two big blows in less than a month, how do I recover from that? I feel like I frequently get kicked in the nuts, and just when a glimpse of hope comes along and there might be a way out, I get denied once again. But, I understand that companies and businessmen have to do what's right and best for them, and even though I feel like I get the short end of the stick, I have to press on, but my head hangs a little lower.

So, I not only continue to suck in my business life, but also in my personal life and relationships. I seems that I can't be anywhere on time (other than work), I put the place I dread the most (other than hell) first, and I can't seem to keep anyone happy. Trust me, I do try, but it just doesn't seem to be enough, and the more I get haggled for the things I don't do, the more I shut down. I'm sure a lot of the unhappiness I bring effects others, but I have yet to find a way out. It's like this infinite abyss of dissatisfaction, unhappiness, anger, and something I call Zero Motivation, which is pretty self-explanatory. Laughter and enjoyment seem to be very brief moments in this existence. I was once told by an ex-girlfriend that she felt helpless because she didn't think there was anything she could do to help me with my unhappiness. I know this isn't how life is supposed to be, but I've fallen and I can't get up.

So, as I continue to find a way out of this purgatorial mind-set, I need everyone, esp. Heather, friends, and family to bear with me. There will be a happier day with bright sunshines, cool breezes, rainbows, and fluffy bunnies, but until then, I may continue to suck, and hope you'll still be there when I no longer do, or to be more realistic, suck less.





I sure do like fluffy bunnies...

Xploited Cinema: a sad day for the #1 site for world cinema

Okay, so you all know I like wierd cinema, and proudly stand behind the website Xploitedcinema.com to purchase this product. Well, he has decided to cease operation in it's current capacity, and will decrease his inventory, possibly with an eventual business closure once everything is sold through. It's a sad day, and here's the message he posted on his site.

The Future of Xploited Cinema

All good things must come to an end and that time is near for Xploited Cinema! It has been years since we started selling DVDs to the best customers around the world, but we've made a decision to move on. Xploited Cinema will still be around, but we will stop carrying new products and stop stocking catalog titles.

It was a tough decision since through the years everyone here has given 110% of themselves, but it's time to slow down, rest and shift gears to new endeavors. Are we "going out of business"? Not necessarily since we will continue to ship orders in the same efficient manner we always have, but in the short term leading into the long term we will be carrying less new releases and not re-ordering older catalog titles.

Mid July will be the time when you will be noticing no new titles added to the website and older titles taken off the website once we sell out. All current pre-orders will be processed and shipped as normal. Over time you will notice older titles disappearing from the website. We recommend getting what you want now since all titles will not be re-ordered as we run low in stock or sell out.

I would like to thank all of the customers that have stuck around with us since the early 2000s. For years I have corresponded with many of you via emails and have met many of you face to face at conventions. I can wholeheartedly say that we have the best and most loyal customers a business could ever imagine.

As i mentioned before this hasn't been an easy decision since I've given as much as i could to make Xploited Cinema a successful DVD retailing website, but I just can't keep doing this for the rest of my life. We will be around in some capacity for who knows how long dealing with the day in day out activities we have always been doing. The only main change noticed will be the elimination of stocking new releases and older catalog titles. Orders will be processed in the same timely manner as in the past and order and item related questions will be answered promptly.

From the bottom of my heart I would once again like to thank everyone who has been an Xploited Cinema customer through the years!

Tony Simonelli
July 6th, 2008

We love you Xploited, you've helped make Side Show Review what it is!!

My Zodiac Sign(s)

I got this in an e-mail and feel like it's pretty accurate. See, mom pushed Kelly and I out of the womb about 6 week early, so we could have been Pisces, but instead we're water bearers and do hold many of these traits.

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart (Jan 20 - Feb 18) Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality. 11 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

PISCES - The Dreamer (Feb 19 - Mar 20) Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic.. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful. 8 years of bad luck if you do not forward.